Outfits

And sometimes I lay out my clothes the day before.

Spring Break

I guess I'm on Spring Break. No class this week which makes me happy but being that I only have one class that meets once a week it's not too much of a break. I've kind of been on Spring Break since I lost my job back in August 09. I had to ask the girl at the burrito joint what day it was today because I wasn't sure if it was discount Taco Tuesday or not. Not having a job kinda makes the days and weeks run together. I don't really know it's a weekend except when the gym is empty or downtown is swarming. I like my schedule these days but I really do need to find a J-O-B !! But not this week, it's Spring Break!

Pure Dirt

I can't stop playing this...REAL LOUD!!

Fancy Like That

I wear high heels because I'm fancy, and because I can!

Walk for me bitch!

Visual Discharge

Peek-a-boo!! I see you!

Egoiste

Simply Classic!

Are You My Daddy?

This man is PERFECT! Makes me feel kind of like Goldie Locks.

Lazy Sunday Groove

Just woke up from a great nap and this came to mind.

It's another beautiful day here in SB. Sunny, clear skies and a slight breeze. This weather kinda makes me long for Hawai'i. I still have to decide if I'm going with my dad to the Big Island for his 70th Birthday in May. Oh who am I kidding? Of course I'm going to go.

Morning Cup Of Joe

I could drink this all morning! Steaming HOT!

Sleep Calls

I think it's time to put this boy to bed.

It's been a long day and I didn't sleep very well last night. In fact I only got two hours sleep and laid in bed thinking about all sorts of crazy shit for the other six hours. Some nights my brain just does not stop. Tonight I sleep and dream.

My Tweet Is Your Mantra

Incongruous Music

Sometimes I wish I was straight so that the lyrics of many of the songs that I really like were congruous with my lifestyle.

Gay Zoo

Here for example is a gay lion. "Roar!"

Lady Bears In Town

An SF friend of mine is in town with his BF for the night. Johnathan is a witty and adorable guy that's been in my peripheral circle of friends for years. I think we've flirted since the day we met and I have the sneaking suspicion that I used to make him nervous. He's a sweetie and and a sexy bear. I haven't seen him in years and he's 'married' now. Years ago after a party he followed me home and we got to bumping lady bits, I was young and dumb and never called him after that night and have regret it ever since. He's such a special cupcake. Luckily we have remained friendly and still flirt a little whenever we're in the same room. We'll see what it's like now that he has a husbear. I guess I'm taking them to the Sportsman for drinks though I'm not drinking these days. Let the one liners roll!

Tasty Chicken

My New Groove

The Fierce Force

For this I am grateful. May evil bless you world wide internet!

The Bear Says Meow

Super Man-Lady

I'm feeling virile and empowered today. Always good to have my testosterone levels back up and above my estrogen levels. I feel like I could leap tall buildings in a single bound now. Well at least take the stairs. Speaking of stairs, today is a leg day for me at the gym. Though I still struggle with proper form and am not lifting a lot of weight I love doing squats. There's something sexy and kinda kinky about doing them and watching other guys do them. Oh my legs and ass are gonna' burn later today. Fuck Yeah! I have a bunch of homework to finish before class tonight so I'm off to the gym soon and then back home for some serious drafting.

I love this picture! It's kinda' me at the core though I would say I'm more like 85% Superman and 15% Wonder Woman. Which reminds me I still need a new pair of heels.

Tube Steak

Can't think. Blood rushing. Throat opening. Lights dimming.

I love me a meaty pair of hairy man thighs and a long fat flaccid dick hanging between em! Makes the back of my throat quiver just looking at it.

Visual Discharge

Work It Till Your Stomach Hurtin

Yeah ... Yeah ... Yeah
Booty rockin
Show stoppin
Everybody back poppin
Knees jerkin, girls workin
Work it till your stomach hurtin
Don't stop gotta get it get it
Shake it off till your body sweatin
Everybody watchin
But that don't mean we stoppin

Let them know you worth it
Dust it off and jerk it
Jerk it, jerk it
Dust it off and jerk it.

Whatchu know bout to bang bang
Dontchu wanna know
Dance and go
Relax and take off your coat
This ain't somethin that you seen before.

Test Shot

Sitting in the waiting area of the Procedure Center at Sansom Clinic. This is my first attempt to blog via the internet on my phone. Patiently waiting.
...and feeling manly again. Just got my 200mg/1cc of testosterone and ready for that loin churning manly feeling again. I really do feel different when I've got balanced levels. Damn you estrogen!!

Ooh Baby Mesmerized

The Word

Some days I have more to say than others. The truth is I'm trying to keep things routine and the same these days. No new additions, no changes to my schedule or routine. I tend to get bored or crave change about every 8 weeks and it usually does less good than real. So for now I have another 3 weeks with my workout routine that I'm trying to stay on and that's the fulcrum of my life. I'm still off the Facebook and not eating red meat or bread till Easter. I think not eating bread has been the hardest as I've had 3 pieces despite my 6 week fast. I'm super excited to have a big 'ol cheeseburger Easter Sunday too! Till then it's just the gym, protein, vitamins and meds, sleep, school and unemployment. I think after my fasts and once my gym routine changes I'll focus my 'change' energy on Finding A Fucking J-O-B!! For now I'm good.

Off to the gym!!

Heel Snap

Booty Motherfucker

I love booty so much...

Yeah Healthcare

Inspiration Hike

My buddy Steve was in town visiting for spring break so we met up with Dana and went on a hike Saturday morning up to Inspiration Point. It was a perfect morning for a hike and because of all the recent rain it was absolutely lush with green vegetation and flowers everywhere. There was a surreal contrast with all the burnt trees from the recent fire too. In the numerous times I've done this hike I've never seen the water flowing quite like it was. This was totally one of those "I Love SoCal" moments.

Note to self: More Hikes!!

Ohhhhh Prince

Beefcake From Porncake

Thank you PORNCAKE, your cakes are always moist and delicious!!

Dog Days Are Over

J'adore le dancefloor!

My Fetish Fantasy

I've always been into well dressed men. When I worked at Mr. S back in the 90's I used to get flack from Richard Hunter about my fetish for men in suits. Of course now there are sites and specific porn just for men into men in suits. Thank you universe!

Feeling a bit frisky as I work on some paperwork and send some emails. Boy do I have a lot of pictures of men on my computer. HOT steamy sexy men!

Crawling Into Bed

Of course I'd rather be crawling my way into this but my bed is warm and cozy too.

I had a lovely Sunday of nothing. I slept till 10am, read a ton, took two naps and watched a new animated show on hulu (new to me) called Archer. I also revamped my workout schedule for the next three weeks from a three day split into a two day split. Still focusing on burning fat with high reps and muscle exhaustion. Looking forward to tomorrows workout.

The Low Spark Of High-Heeled Boys

The percentage you're paying is too high priced
while you're living beyond all your means.
And the man in the suit has just bought a new car
from the profit he's made on your dreams.
But today you just swear that the man was shot dead
by a gun that didn't make any noise.
But it wasn't the bullet that laid him to rest
was the low spark of high-heeled boys.


A tune that will forever make me reminisce of Justin Bond.

Two Great Tastes That Taste Great Together

Working It Out

I'm off to the gym so I can be big and strong! It's a chest day. And always an ab day. And then of course the showering of the sweaty body afterwards!

Monday I get my testosterone shot! Yeah!! It's been the longest two weeks ever and I really feel like I'm fading here. I need my fix. Fix being balanced levels of hormones. Monday I also find out from my doc if we're going to boost that level to a higher dose. Right now I'm on a pretty average low injection but the doc thinks we can increase it to help my hormone levels and other aspects of my endocrine system. Lawrdy I'm one walking talking physiological imbalance. Come On Neutrality and Balance!

Tonight's Sweet Dream

Do The Blood Labs Ever Stop

Accck... I'm 'fasting' tonight (no food after 10pm) for an early blood draw tomorrow to retest my triglyceride levels which apparently are high (350) despite the fact that I'm getting great exercise and have a very low fat diet. I burn more calories than I take in, I don't drink, my thyroid is fine according to the endocrinologist, and I don't have diabetes (that we know of) which leaves two possible options. I'm either having kidney problems (which has been discussed before) or/and the Accutane I'm on for my dermatological problems is affecting my kidneys and thus causing problems and high triglycerides.

Triglycerides are a type of fat found in your blood and your body uses them for energy. You need some triglycerides for good health but high triglycerides can raise your risk of heart disease and may be a sign of metabolic syndrome.

Metabolic syndrome is the combination of high blood pressure, high blood sugar, too much fat around the waist, low HDL ("good") cholesterol, and high triglycerides. Metabolic syndrome increases your risk for heart disease, diabetes, and stroke.

Normal triglycerides are less than 150.
Borderline-high is 150 to 199.
High is 200 to 499. (mine on Tuesday were at 350)
Very high is 500 or higher.

Omega-3's help a great deal in lowering high triglycerides. I just started taking pharmaceutical grade Omega-3's 4 times daily with each gel capsule containing (EPA)465mg and (DHA)375mg. You just can't get that combination of healthy fatty acids over the counter or even in good fish. I looked and compared because the script is expensive! I just hope it works so that I don't have to come off the Accutane. My back, chest and arm acne is really starting to show progress and my self confidence has been coming back thanks to the clear skin and weight loss. But it seems if it's not one thing it's another these days. It's all about sacrifice and compromise.

Not Cancer & Not Infection

I got a call from my doctor's nurse today to let me know that the testing on the biopsy samples so far have come back non-cancerous and non-infectious. Super good news but it does leave some questions. What the fuck is that 'mass' in my right lung. I saw the x-rays and the CAT scan and it's a sizable white 'mass' attached to the inside front wall of my right lung. Maybe it is an alien chest burster after all. Or my evil twin. Guess they have to run some more tests on the samples to see if there is hair or teeth or possibly a brain.
I go in Monday to meet with the pulmonary MD and hopefully he will have some solid answers for me by then. Fingers crossed.

Pomplamoose

St. Paddy's Green

Heaven Tonight

Hetero Vs Homo

Visual Discharge